Teenage Angst

Tarrot

Rham predicted my future. No, he doesn't have that supernatural-vision. He read my cards. The results kind of gave me a fright because every cards seems to made "tuGma" and everything. goosebumps. I asked the cards 3 questions and it gave me satisfactory answers. yehey!

Say "HeLLo" to my middLe fiNger...

Do you really think that you can get away with this? After what you’ve said and done? After ruining my day? I don’t think so! You are so going to get it! I swear! Maybe not now, not tomorrow but I swear I’ll get back to you. And I’ll make sure that you’ll NEVER forget all about this!

"CELL"

[written: June 25, 2006 ----> 11:03 pm]

"CELL"

If nothing is forever,
wiLL you be my nothing?

If there is Life after death,
wiLL you give up your Life to keep me fRom death?

If you found out that I am breatheless
wiLL you wiLLingLy surrender your souL in heaven?

If you knew that I was damned in the fLamed ceLL
wiLL you swim through the burning lava in heLL?

I cannot promise you forever but I will definiteLy
extinguish heLLfire jUst to give you paradise...

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tear-machine

I'M ON MY WAY

I will only be a memory,
To all these beautiful faces,
Of many colourful races.
Or will I be even that?
Zero souls knocked at my door,
As invitingly as I sat.

I am alive,
If you have not noticed,
I am alive,
But zero promised,
I am awake,
You're happily asleep,
I am awake,
I listen to you deep,
But you don't hear me weep,
I am awake,
This is reality,
You aren't ready to take.

I am not an annual signing machine,
But you would not know that,
You have not knocked,
Now the doors are almost shut,
But they will not be locked.

Fuck off!!

You're so blind
I don't mind if you go
I don't talk and if you walk
I don't mind if you go

Fuck you
Fuck You
FUCK YOU

I shouldn't have to cry anymore
I don't deserve it
ups and downs
It is really fucking pissing me off
Shadowed pain
and you never ask "what's wrong"
I was wrong for trusting you again

Why are things the way they are and why do I care?

I’m swimming in a pool of pain
Cause I’ve fallen for it again
A wrecked friendship
No more fun
You should not date just anyone
Too quickly involved
You have not evolved
Are you happy now?
Shut your mouth
Slap your brow
The shock of it all
Crumbing down –now in fall
Never will I say it
Never- I vow
I’m a little weird
I don’t know what I want
Well does anybody
I’m a little scarred
I’m a little tired
I’d quit but I’ve been fired
Everyone in the group
The whole lot
I can’t believe I forgot
I need a lesson to be taught
You were happy then
Will you be happy again
Below you is the ground- above you is the sky
Please don’t sit there and ask why?
That’s the way it is
I don’t know why anything is the way it is.

I live a lie

Yes I live a lie
this smiley happy-go-lucky outside is a facade
really i am dark and miserable
but no one wants to talk about that
so i smile and nod to your stupid trivial conversations
Once I bared my soul to the world and it laughed at me
Now I live a lie
I comply to the norm of falsity
for your amusement and my protection
I will live a lie
until that final moment when I die

Fuck, what now?

Fuck you and you and you and you.
Oh yeah, and fuck me, yeah, fuck me too.

I am tired of playing kiss ass games,
where I'm just a number, please no names.

When did being a kid become so tough,
just because your parents say they had it rough.

Fuckin' Monty Python had it right,
when they sent that cow out of sight.

Because when life just sucks, I want to die,
I want to take off and fly in the sky.

Fuck, what now? Keep out of my room,
I'm fucking plotting the fucking world's doom.

+++ ... rAdiO ... ++

 by: AlkaLine tRio

Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades,
waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
while you're taking your time with apologies,
I'm making my plans for revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'd drive straight off the edge

Taking your own life with boredom,
I'm taking my own life with wine -
it helps you to rule out the sorrow,
it helps me to empty my mind
Making the most of a bad time
I'm smoking the brains from my head
Leaving the coal calling the kettle black and orange and red
This kettle is seeing red

I've got a big fat fuckin' bone to pick with you my darling
In case you haven't heard I'm sick and tired of trying
I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you,
plugged in and ready to fall

Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades,
waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
while you're taking your time with apologies,
I'm planning out my revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'm seeing red

I've got a big fat fuckin' bone to pick with you my darling
In case you haven't heard I'm sick and tired of trying
I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you,
plugged in and ready to fall

Plugged in and ready to fall
Plugged in and ready to fall

Plugged in and ready to fall


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sOng of the moment -- astiG uLit!!....

++ I DiEd fOr LoVe ++

I siT hErE, sTarE aNd dwELL
fOr tHe mAn i LoVed So wELL
he'S cUte, he LooKs fiNe
hOw i wiSh he WaS miNe

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tHe wAy he StaRes
maKes mE sHivEr, uNawAre
aNd hiS beWitcHinG sMiLe
aNd Oh-sO-uNiqUe styLe

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HiS eSsEncE iS aS hot aS fiRe
it iS wHaT i tRuLy deSire
wHo'S tHat haRLoT in wHiTe
tHe One'S bLocKinG mY siGht?

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my jeALOus HeaRt b/leedS reaLLy fAst
dOne by a speLL tHat he cAst

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"he iS my FriEnd"
tHat's wHat i aLwaYs sAy
tHat i reMind mySeLf
eVery-SinGLe-dAy

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I'm beWiLdeRed, i dOn't kNow wHat tO dO
cOnfUsed emOtiOns, aLL becauSe Of yOu

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I Ran hOme tO siT On my bEd
nOt a wOrD tO my mOm wAs sAid
i LoCkeD mySeLf iN my rOoM
jUst tO pLot my DaRkesT dOom

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a shiny 0bject attracted my eyes
then I argued with myseLf twice

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S0 i've decided to puLL the trigger
Sh0t it fr0m my mouth d0wn t0 my Liver

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dad arrived Late at night
and came up0n a messy sight

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s0aked in my bL00d, he f0und me Lying

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then 0n my shirt, he f0und a Letter
written then, my wishes when I faLtered

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"Dig my grave, dig it deep
dig my grave fr0m head t0 feet
and 0n my t0mb pLace a d0ve
Let aLL remember this...
... I died for LOVE

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